That’s my Mum, she existed, she laughed, there was a time she wasn’t dying or sad, when this wasn’t our reality, and when she could hug me and tell me everything’s going to be okay. The pain is just an indicator of how strong our bond was.
Tag: stubborn
On My Own
“Okay Evee, you’re on your own now, and you have to put as much distance between this tragic event as you can.”
As Told By Tamara
The intensity of your grief is in direct proportion to the deep love you had for them. This is not something you can skip over, ignore, or run away from.
Something To Brighten Your Sunday #4
Hope that this made you smile, and that you are enjoying this glorious weather.
Reality Revisited: Am I A Carer?
It didn’t make sense at first. How could I have been a carer for such a long period without having realised? I think this is the case for many people. Like I said, the changes were minimal at first, and you really don’t mind because you’d do anything for your family.
I’m So Anxious, I Can’t Wait!
The biggest growth comes from being outside of your comfort zone. It’s really scary to put yourself out there, but think of all the things that could go right. If anxiety gives us the power to convince ourselves that something bad might happen, why not use it to our strength and convince ourselves there’s something to be excited about?
The Odd One Out
Most of all, I don’t want to be the odd one out among a new group of friends. So, I avoid the conversation and protect them, myself, my mum, and my grief.
#16 Thursday Thoughts: How Will You Look Back On Lockdown?
We have settled on the fact that we will look back on lockdown like an unlikely friend. It sure was life changing.
Perfectly Untouched
When my Mum passed away, I willed my life to stay exactly how she left it – perfectly untouched like the crisp layer of newly fallen snow, blanketing my life. I daren’t take a step forward in fear of altering what she had left. I awkwardly lived around her belongings, preserving her life in our home.
Under Pressure
That’s one of the most difficult things about losing my mum, I just want to tell her how difficult life is without her in it.