The Gift of Time

Isn’t it funny how my initial reaction to the news that I am being furloughed, a word that I had never heard of 2 months ago, was one of shame? In a worldwide crisis where millions of people are losing their jobs, I felt embarrassed that I am being furloughed for the next 2 months. Thankfully, this thought process did not last very long as I re-evaluate my position. I am extremely lucky and grateful for this scheme. And, while there is so much uncertainty in the world, I am grateful for this gift of time. 

I feel so thankful because among all of this madness, I have found a home at my uncle’s. When the nation was panic stricken by the prospect of a lockdown and friends were leaving London to stay with their families, my compass pointed me here. And I was welcomed with a feeling of safety that I have not felt since before my mum passed away; a feeling of coming home again. 

Over the next couple of months, there is a lot to consider. I feel as though the world is undergoing a collective healing at this time, to reflect on what is important and how we wish to resume our lives after lockdown.

Since my mum passed a way, my whole perspective on life changed and I have felt as though I have been walking around with a secret; “pssst, did you know that people actually die and none of what we are doing is actually that important?” All that truly matters in this life is family and being with the people you love, and I feel so lucky to be seeing this through with mine in a place that I can call home. 

Today I leave you with a whole album rather than just one song; Norah Jones, Feels Like Home. I used to listen to Norah Jones all the time with my mum, I think everyone can feel a little closer to home listening to her voice.

Go gently,

Katie

14 thoughts on “The Gift of Time

  1. clairei47 – My name is Claire. I am a mum, a wife and I work for the NHS. For as long as I can remember I have drank alcohol and my relationship with it has become increasingly complex over recent years. I’m 47 and I want to be physically and mentally healthy. I want to be present in my life and enjoy the journey, not drown it out with wine and hangovers. I have had anxiety and depression and I am still working hard to keep them at bay. I am hoping that not having alcohol will help me beat them. I have decided to detail how things progress via this blog. I know nothing about blogging but I think support from others is essential. Maybe one day I can help someone with my story. I started my sober journey on 17th November 2019; long may it continue.
    clairei47 says:

    I think many emotions are triggered right now, shame probably a common one. Guilt and shame are interlinked but I’m glad to hear you have a job and a place you can call home, with family. It’s important to not feel isolated right now. Particularly when grieving for your mum. She would be so happy you are with your uncle. X

    1. Hi Claire, yeah I agree. I have just entered my third week of furlough and feeling a lot better thank you. Work seems miles away and I am happy to have time to do what I enjoy 🙂 I hope you are safe and well 🙂 X

  2. What a beautiful post – thank you Katie for reminding me what really matters as I eat my breakfast and start another day in lockdown Lots of Love xx

  3. Another stunning post I can so relate to. It was such an odd feeling when I furloughed as well. Just got to focus on what is important. x

    1. Hi Gary! I struggled during the first 2 weeks off with keeping busy and finding motivation but my third week is looking a lot brighter and I am making the most of my time. How are you coping? Are you still off work? x

      1. The company I work for manage things like cycle races, parades. Those are not happening anytime soon. Not sure the company will survive much beyond September without any events. But it is what it is. We have faced so much worse. We can do this. Any idea when you might go back x

  4. dfolstad58 – I live in the South Okanagan. BC. I enjoy reading, exercise, toastmasters. spending time with my son, my daughter, & her husband , and my patient wife. I try to respond personally to every comment on my blog, and in this way I hope to get to know my readers a little bit and say thank you for their encouragement and suggestions.
    dfolstad58 says:

    I understand how you have had your perspective changed. Experiences and times with family take on a new priority when you lose someone you love.- David

  5. Amelia F. Adjepon-Yamoah – I live in Ghana but sometimes travel to other countries. – I turned 76 years this year (2019).I am married with children and I am also a grandmother. I retired as a librarian in 2004. I am a Christian who loves her church and Bible class members. My older siblings are a very important part of my life. I also love relating to young people who love my company so we share ideas and learn from our experiences. I keep in touch with friends and school mates I have known for over 50 years. I believe everyone who wants to get married must prepare for that life by learning what that relationship entails. And after marriage to do their best to keep their marriage together, enjoyable and inspiring to others.
    Amelia F. Adjepon-Yamoah says:

    There’s nothing like having a place you can call home!

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