“Jump And The Universe Will Catch You.”

This is something my mum would always say to us when we found ourselves teetering on the brink of a new change. That, coupled with “change is good” and “all good things”, yet my anxious young mind filled with dread at the prospect of changing teacher at the beginning of the school year, or going to secondary school at the end of year 6.  Or later, when my parents separated, and we had to live in two different houses. I didn’t want change. 

This time last year I feared the imminent changing of the season from summer to autumn. It meant that my life would be altered forever leaving me without that one person, who, up until that point, had held my hand through all of these changes throughout my life. 

For Evee, however, change can’t come soon enough as we pack up the house and get her to university. We always knew that was the plan. But what the heck was going to do, now that I’ve finished my education? The uncertainty flooded my mind with anxious thoughts; just as it did when I was small, but this time I couldn’t hide behind my mum. 

Trying to take control and trusting my mum’s words, I have put all of my faith into the universe these past couple of weeks. Putting that little girl’s fear aside, I have opened my arms and welcomed change as I got on a train up to London for an interview. 

To my surprise, the interview itself was actually really interesting. I quickly realised that considering what I have been through this past year, a conversation about why I’d like to work for this company really isn’t that scary. And, after dedicating my degree to the profession, I actually had quite a lot to say!  

After the interview, I had a lot to reflect on. I concluded that I really, really, really liked the company, and regardless of whether they liked me or not, it was good practice and I am bloody proud of myself for even getting to this point after the year I’ve had, and now I should enjoy the rest of my day. 

I went to lunch with one of my best friend’s and afterward she treated me to a cocktail on a rooftop bar and we flirted with the idea of what my life would look like if I did move to London. We accepted that, I’d definitely be broke, but I’d finally be close to my friends so it’d definitely be worth it. 

And then they phoned me… Before I even got on my train home the company phoned me say that I was perfect for the role. Needless to say, I cried a few happy tears on the way home. 

I realised that, actually, I’ve been crying a few more happy tears than sad ones recently. That’s definitely a good change. 

So, we continue onwards and upwards as we close a chapter on Devon, and we are embracing life’s changes and manifesting “all good things”. “Change is good”.

I don’t feel fear like I used to. I’ve learnt that the only thing that you can actually count on in this life is, in fact, change. I don’t try and run away from it anymore; running away takes up too much energy anyway. It’s easier to face it straight on, embrace it, and jump.  

Now, Universe, if you could sort out a nice, affordable room (emphasis on affordable). 

Feeling hopeful, and grateful. 

Thank you, Universe. Thank you, Mum. 

Katie 

10 minutes after this photo was taken I fell over and sprained my ankle when I was walking back to the car.

Taken by Evee on the Nikon Coolpix P900

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11 thoughts on ““Jump And The Universe Will Catch You.”

  1. bigskybuckeye – United States – Born in the Big Sky Country of Montana and now living in the Buckeye State of Ohio, Richard is the creative mind behind Big Sky Buckeye. Retired after 40 years of teaching, I enjoy writing, photography, traveling, and following a healthy lifestyle.
    bigskybuckeye says:

    Hooray! Congregations, the phone call you received proves we can jump and the universe will usually catch us. I hope the ankle heals up quickly.

  2. M T McGuire – Great Britain – Humorous fantasy fiction author... the books are quite funny too. MTMcGuireAuthor on Twitter if you tweet. Website here www.hamgee.co.uk blog here www.mtmcguire.co.uk
    M T McGuire says:

    Well done and congratulations.

  3. Great news! – the job that is, not the ankle! 🙂

    Change has to be learned to be embraced. Fear has to be learned to be overcome. Do those two things well and the world is yours! 🙂

  4. I’m so pleased for you. Your journey forward continually makes me smile and realise what’s good with our world. Thank you.

  5. PoetJanstie – UK – “Life is short and art long, the crisis fleeting, experience penniless and decision difficult” ~ Hippocrates. As a young man, John enjoyed being fit and sporting. It was then as much his recreational therapy as a cappella harmony singing, music, walking in the hills and writing is now. Playing Rugby Union for over twenty years, encouraged in the early days by a school that was run on the same lines as Gordonstoun, giving shape and discipline to a sometimes precarious early life. This fitness was enhanced by working part time jobs in farming, as a leather factory packer and security guard, but probably not helped, for a short time, by selling ice cream! His professional working life was spent as a Metallurgical Engineer, Marketing Manager, Export Sales Manager, Implementation Manager and Managing Director of his own company. Thirty five years spent, apparently in a creative desert, raising a family, pursuing a career and helping to pay the bills, probably enriched his experience, because his renaissance, on retirement, realised a hidden creative talent as a writer of prose and poetry. He also enjoys music, with a piano and a forty-nine year old Yamaha FG140 acoustic guitar. He sings bass in three a cappella harmony groups: as a founding member of a mixed voice chamber choir, Fox Valley Voices and a mixed barbershop quartet. He is also a member of one of the top barbershop choruses in the UK, Hallmark of Harmony (the Sheffield Barbershop Harmony Club), who, for the eighth time in 40 years, became UK Champions in 2019. He is also a would be (once upon a time or 'has been') photographer with drawers full of his own history, and an occasional, but lapsed 'film' maker. In his other life, he doubles as a Husband, Father, Grandfather, Brother, Uncle, Cousin, Friend and Family man. What he writes is sometimes autobiographical, often political, sometimes dark and frequently pins his colours to the mast of climate change and how humans are trashing the Earth. In 2013, he published an anthology of the poetry (including his own) of an international group of poets, who met on Twitter in 2011. He produced, edited and steered the product of this work, "Petrichor Rising", to publication by Aquillrelle. His sort of strapline sort of reads: “ iWrite iSing iDance iVolunteer ”
    PoetJanstie says:

    I love the universe, ‘tis the source of our lives and ‘tis where we shall return one day. I also love your Mum’s advice. It makes even the most scary situations (and humans) less scary.

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